I don’t know about you, but life has had ups and downs, in and out’s, roller coaster rides, and high-speed chases, but I survived. I came into 2011 with a made up mind (I would not call it resolutions) of what I was not going to take or do. But, I quickly discovered that my plans were definitely not the Lord’s.
I had to deal with the death of people I loved dearly, the death of a pet, letting go of people who meant me harm, the loss of possessions, and nearly almost losing my mind to the point that I wanted to end my life.
See, I was in a place I thought I would never recover. I went to church, participated in ministry, went on with my everyday motherly duties, but I could not feel anything. I was numb. The funny thing is that the people who were close to me couldn’t see my struggles. I compared that to when most people commit suicide and relatives say, “He/She was so happy”. Only someone who was close to ending their own life would be able to pick up on the signs. I didn’t even look the same. I begin to look as dark as I felt. It was indeed the end. Satan was literally sucking the life out of me and I had no hope.
I was just about to give up, yes you guessed it…The Lord sent a message to remind me of his promises and the word spoken over my life. The messenger was man. Now, I don’t know why God chose him, for that fact, why in life did he choose a man? After all, most of my inner issues had everything to do with a man. Why couldn’t he have used a woman, a child, or better yet why didn’t the Lord just speak a word to me himself? God has an awesome way of showing us his power. He is so amazing because the very thing that caused me so much pain my entire life would be sent as a vessel to me.
The Lord desires for us to be healed in every area of our lives. So as you reminisce on those persons, places, and thing that caused us our greatest pain, reflect on God’s redeeming love to heal us and make us whole.